Wednesday, September 25, 2013
It's All Small Right Now
It seems that every time I open the newspaper or turn on the television there's fodder for my blog. Police shooting citizens, a mall taken over by terrorists, a mass shooting in the Navy Yard. Rachel Maddow shares some statistics about the uptick in mass shootings over the past few years and it's alarming. Really alarming. Starbucks comes out with a watered-down policy about gun-toting coffee drinkers, putting profits before the safety of their patrons. To tell you the truth, right now I only want to look away.
This past weekend we spent time with family and new friends. We were in a small Massachusetts town. There were children and babies and soon-to-be borns in the crowd and I kept thinking, "What is the world like for those six, seven and eight year old children? What is it going to be like?" I wondered how the parents will handle the internet and the questions they are bound to have about a world blown wide apart by violence and too much openness, about access to all the information in the world at their fingertips. In one very touching moment, two of the children talked about being bullied and comforted each other.
Late one afternoon, I sat on the front porch of our rental house and watched the sun go down. I was alone for the first time in two days and I felt this deep sadness for the turmoil that families face from within and without.
I again came back to my questions about what is causing this surge in violence in our world. The possible answers were all the same: guns, media, lack of quality mental health care, stress over jobs andmoney, insecurity and feelings of unworthiness in our young people. One of them or all of them. I don't know.
As I hugged my girls goodbye, I said the usual things: Call me when you get home. I love you. See you soon. And today I'm unwilling to think about the violence that I see in the paper and on television, choosing instead to think only of home, my love for my family, and the anticipation of seeing them again. It's all small, and it doesn't begin to address the violence in the world in the way I first hoped when I promised you readers to talk about it, but it's all I'm capable of looking at right now.