Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I am usually a fairly even-tempered person. Lately though, my emotions have been very unpredictable. Yesterday for instance, I rode a couple of emotional highs, actually grinning inanely at how happy I felt. And then a song came on the CD player, or a letter came from the Food Bank, something fairly innocuous, and I found myself in tears.
I'm fighting fear about the state of the world, constantly assuring myself that things are going to be fine. I'm embracing elation over a couple of back-to-back good short stories. I'm making myself available to friends who are suffering: one with the loss of her brother, another whose husband has cancer. My dreams have been full of nostalgia about my children when they were younger. I'm beginning to make yet another lifestyle change by going to the gym. I'm also angry, so angry every time I pick up the newspaper and read that another careless corporation is being given my money to fix things. Up and down, up and down.
Are any of you experiencing these waves of emotion? If so, how are you handling it?